I just received an e-mail from whoever hacked into my MySpace. The person is even posing as me in their e-mail address. It had my name. Here's what it said:

Ok. So, I know you're really upset about the MySpace thing, but let's face it, it was too easy. Besides, everything I wrote on there was true. Lets go down the list:

1.) I deleted half your friends, cause lets face it: You know you don't really have that many. Blake Willoughby? Come on.

2.) Oh, I changed your profile to say nothing but the truth. Cutter? Yes. You've probably still got cuts on your legs that no one knows about, not even J.R. Around with every guy? Yeah, probably. You leap from guy to guy like no one knows. And you always whine when it doesn't work out and then you find a new victim and go on like it will all be different "this time".

3.) Relationship status to single? I'm just predicting the inevitable. Lets call it intuition.

4.) Orientation from Straight to Bi? Well, you know thats true.. look who you're dating!.. Or, in that case, HE could be Bi, cause look who HE'S dating! HA!

5.) I changed your size from average to More To Love! If you can't figure out why, look in the mirror sometime soon. I know it's been a while since you have, believe me, I can tell. But they do still make those things. Just don't scare yourself. Or break the mirror. That could be 7 years bad luck, or no years to come, depending on your decision of what to do with the pieces.

6.) Middle Eastern and Muslim... those were just funny... haha

7.) Proud parent. That one's a laugh too. Kids come from sex, which requires touching which requires someone to love you. Which you don't have.

By the way, do you honestly think anything of yours is safe? I know who you are, I know where you live, I know everything about you, including every thought, doubt and fear that runs through that disturbed mind of yours. You can't hide who you really are. Not from J.R., not from your family.. and certainly not from me. Everywhere you go, I'm watching you, Becky Lane.

Why do I always do these things? *sigh* I'll explain more later.

I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
This invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so, I'm so sick

I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so sick)
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so)

Everyone on LJ, here's my warning: do NOT get a MySpace. Other than the fact that they're not as cool as LJs, mine was hacked into and now it says some pretty nasty things that I can't change because the person changed my password. Nobody hacks into LJs, I guess because they're not the "cool" messaging system or something. Whatever. I'm not getting another MySpace after this. You always feel bad for people when you hear about it happening on the news, but you never realize how horrible it really is until it happens to you. I am so angry that I just want to scream and cry and throw my computer out a window. If you know anyone who has me as a friend on MySpace, make sure they delete me. I sent an e-mail to the MySpace people, and they will hopefully delete the account soon. I'm totally not getting another MySpace after this. My loyalties lie completely with LJ. I can trust LJ. LJ won't come back and pimp slap me. LONG LIVE LJ!!!

I just changed my pointers, and it is hilarious. My regular mouse pointer wags its tail, and when you scroll over a link, it becomes a banana. I'm now working on finding a way to fit the dinosaur into it without getting rid of my drum or piano. I decided on the blue dinosaur for help select. Well, I've got to go. It's sleepy time, and they're discussing brothels on wild west tech.

IMDB keyword meme
1. Go to IMDB.com and look up 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Post three four? official IMDB "Plot Keywords" for each.
3. Hey guys, guess the movies!

No cheating!

1.Fall Down Stairs, Jewish Ghetto, Funny Nazi, Megalomaniac

2.Stabbed in the Shoulder, No Opening Credits, Decapitation, Birthday Party

3.Alien Creature as Pet, Midlife Crisis, Shakespearean Quote, Psychotronic

4.Levitation, Woman in Uniform, Steam Locomotive, Communal Dining Hall

5.Funny Accent, Famous Line, Albino, Wheelbarrow

6.Pizza Delivery, Jump From Height, Animal That Acts Human, Juvenile Delinquent

7.Severed Head, Wilhelm Scream, Woman in Labour Scene, Child Murder

8.Winnebago, Deliberate Cruelty, Urination Scene, Self Cannibalism

9.No Ending, Shrubbery, Hit In Crotch, Gorilla

10.Negative Footage, Stop Motion, Venus Flytrap, Bremen Germany

Have fun!

Last night was awesome! First, I must say, that JR looked smokin' hot. I barely recognized him when he walked out of his house, but not in a bad way. I must say, he looked much older than 16, also in a good way. We went and got our pictures done at Breck Co Photo, and we could get them as early as this week if we want to. They're doing some really neat stuff with background replacement and stuff. I can't wait to see them!

After our pictures, we came back to my house. Mom had already put the lasagna in the oven (I prepared it before I got dressed). We went back to my room and I showed him the Kingdom Hearts Chronicles, which every fan of Kingdom Hearts must see...even non-fans who appreciate stoner humor and parodies. It features cameos from Harry Potter and Obi-Wan Kenobi. We ate by ourselves while watching "The Great Dictator," a movie featuring Charlie Chaplin in his first speaking role. He played Adenoid Hynkel, the dictator of Tomania. Just read this, and you will understand the comedic genius:

Adenoid Hynkel: How wonderful! Tomania, a nation of blue-eyed blondes.
Garbitsch: Why not a blonde Europe, Asia, America?
Adenoid Hynkel: Blonde world...
Garbitsch: And a brunette dictator.
Adenoid Hynkel: Dictator of the world!

After eating, Christel, Gilbert, Cilla, and Jason came over and we hung out for a while before heading out.

*******NEWSFLASH*******
I DROVE ON MY OWN!!!

That's right, I drove to prom, just me and JR, no adult present to tell me what I was doing wrong.

Now, I would like to formally apologize to the junior class. The decorations effin rocked. In fact, the whole thing effin rocked.

I wish I could tell everyone what we did after prom, (which is where the entry got the name *sigh*) but that information is strictly classified. I'll leave it at this: JR, if you're reading this, I need to talk to you about you playing with my ring. Also, we need to find a time to finish Nosferatu. Thirdly, you need a livejournal. I'll make one for you if you want. In fact, I'll probably make one for you anyway, so that we'll be able to easily keep in touch when I'm at Western.

Well, I've got to go. Love you all!

So, I am totally stressing. I can not wait for this whole prom fiasco to be over with. I am so confused, my brain hurts. I am honestly going crazy. I want to vomit. Can I just skip it?

Cilla got on LJ for the first time in two years, and found what Beth wrote about not being invited to Lathan's, and now she's on a rampage. Then she calls me and expects me to feel sympathy for her even though she backed out of our plans with THREE DAYS to spare. Sure, I feel sorry for her, but now she knows how I felt when I had to hear from other people that she wasn't coming to my house for dinner. I love her to death, but the initial sympathy has worn off. See how you like having to plan an entire meal in less than 24 hours, Cilla!

I give up. I'm going to bed.

So, JR sent me an e-mail after reading that last entry. He wrote, in a very stern way, that he would never let me do such a thing because he knew that I was depressed and I was likely to do something irrational. He worried that I was going to do some things which I talked about on here (before he even read this), and he refused to get off the phone until he was sure that I would be all right. He sat and listened to me while I was crying on the phone the night I wrote it (he didn't read it until after we were off the phone). I love him so much...

Although I still say that he deserves better.

In other news, I can't wait until this whole "prom" fiasco is done and overwith. It's too much of a hassle.

Well, today was a blissfully cheerful day. If you haven't hinted the note of sarcasm, you should quit reading now.

So, I nearly broke up with JR today. No, before you say anything, he hasn't done anything wrong. We've barely even had any arguments. I love him. I love him so much it hurts. I just know that I'm going to get hurt. One day he's going to wake up and realize what a big mistake he's making. I'm trying to spare him from that, but he won't listen. We're both going to end up getting hurt if we don't end things. I can feel it. The last time I felt this sort of pain was when a complete @$$hole said he wished I would slit my wrists and die. I've always been able to tell when something bad is going to happen. He's so perfect and wonderful...I can't drag him down with me.

So, now dad is getting all pissed off because there's stuff all over the bathroom counter. He told Meggie and me to go in there and get rid of our junk. All that was on there that belonged to me was my contact solution and case, which is always there. I told him that, and he said "then what's all that crap?" He pointed to mom's makeup. I rarely wear makeup, and when I do I apply it in my room. If my day gets any worse, I'll be close to reverting back to some very bad behavior.

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